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Lonely Shore Book two of Chaos StationAll they can do is live day to dayFelix Ingesson has returned to his duties as the Chaos s engineer with Zander Anatolius, his ex boyfriend turned broken super soldier, at his side Hope means something again But there s nothing Felix can do to battle the alien poison flowing through Zander s veins, or his imminent mental decline With each passing day, the side effects of Zander s experimental training are becoming difficult to ignoreWhen the ruthless Agrius Cartel seeks their revenge including an ambush and an attempt to kidnap the Chaos s crew Zander is pushed over the edge He can no longer hide his symptoms, nor does he want to But hurting Felix when he s not in control of himself is Zander s worst nightmare when it nearly happens, he agrees to seek help Even if that means trusting the unknown As Zander places his life in alien hands, Felix appoints himself his lover s keeper And though he tries to be strong, he can t ignore the fact that he might lose Zander forever this time ALL THE STARS Heart rending Agonizing Painful And so, so brilliant I really liked book 1, but THIS It blew me away It ripped my heart out It made me feel, so much Felix and Zed are put through the worst With Zed s mental and physical health deteriorating with the speed of light, both men are near breaking point And break they do, in one way or another.Tbh, I was glad I cheated and read the blurb for the next book, so it made the impact of what happens a little bit easier to bear, but ALL THE STARS Heart rending Agonizing Painful And so, so brilliant I really liked book 1, but THIS It blew me away It ripped my heart out It made me feel, so much Felix and Zed are put through the worst With Zed s mental and physical health deteriorating with the speed of light, both men are near breaking point And break they do, in one way or another.Tbh, I was glad I cheated and read the blurb for the next book, so it made the impact of what happens a little bit easier to bear, but it still made me cry These authors know what grief feels like Because the way they describe it hits you right in the guts and the heart, and then they do it all over again and again It felt utterly real.If this sounds grim and sad, well, yes, it is When the love of your life can t view spoiler remember your name from one minute to the next and is in constant excruciating pain hide spoiler it isthan harrowing Particularly when you have your own demons to face.Both MCs are deeply complex, flawed and utterly human I really wanted to shake Felix at times for his behavior and as for Zed darn that man is a hero all the way through.So, is this the ultimate angst fest I would be lying if I said this isn t angsty, but it is so brilliantly done There is also so much love and hope and goodness going around, it does help and soothe the pain a little.The love between Zed and Felix, although it s inevitably heavily burdened by anguish and sadness.The love and friendship between all the crew members who I ve come to adore.The wonderful ashushk and their compassion.The mysterious Guardians.Qek is my favourite secondary character here I love that little blue genderless alien to bits Her that s her chosen gender funny earth idioms are adorable and her innate kindness is so touching, things that provide balm to the soul.Fantastic writing all the way and now I m hooked Off to the far end of the galaxy to start book 3 This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers To view it, click here Rating 4 of fiveBurke Jensen slayed me They made every choice inevitable and each response inescapable And, in the end, ma at is preserved.There isto say but I can t find the words or the coordination to type them just now THE NEXT DAY The Publisher Says Book two of Chaos StationAll they can do is live day to dayFelix Ingesson has returned to his duties as the Chaos s engineer with Zander Anatolius, his ex boyfriend turned broken super soldier, at his side Hope mea Rating 4 of fiveBurke Jensen slayed me They made every choice inevitable and each response inescapable And, in the end, ma at is preserved.There isto say but I can t find the words or the coordination to type them just now THE NEXT DAY The Publisher Says Book two of Chaos StationAll they can do is live day to dayFelix Ingesson has returned to his duties as the Chaos s engineer with Zander Anatolius, his ex boyfriend turned broken super soldier, at his side Hope means something again But there s nothing Felix can do to battle the alien poison flowing through Zander s veins, or his imminent mental decline With each passing day, the side effects of Zander s experimental training are becomingdifficult to ignore.When the ruthless Agrius Cartel seeks their revenge including an ambush and an attempt to kidnap the Chaos s crew Zander is pushed over the edge He can no longer hide his symptoms, nor does he want to But hurting Felix when he s not in control of himself is Zander s worst nightmare when it nearly happens, he agrees to seek help Even if that means trusting the unknown As Zander places his life in alien hands, Felix appoints himself his lover s keeper And though he tries to be strong, he can t ignore the fact that he might lose Zander forever this time.My Review This is going to be one of those why this book made me feel thus and such reviews If those personal reflection reader response reviews piss you off, and gawd knows there are plenty who feel that way about them, scroll on.For most people, falling in love doesn t fix things, it fucks them up Falling in love with someone whose background is the diametric opposite of your own is exciting, and challenging, and well within the definition of a really crappy idea Felix the station rat and Zander the rich kidinherent inequality in the relationship s power structure and all the resentment that breeds on both sidesnone of that is delved into very deeply because the current story arc is very much about survival Zed s survival as a living being and Flick s survival as an emotional being.The titanic tsunami heading for the men is the physiological modifications that Zed, hollowed out by the incalculable and unfixable loss of Flick to the stin, volunteered to undergo His transformation into a part stin superwarrior, done in a last ditch effort to stem the tide of losses to the stin, was a success in that Zed can replicate the stin warriors greatest advantage over humans the ability to phase shift, or locate themselves physically in a dimension just enough different from 4D spacetime to prevent humans from touching therefore killing them, but still close enough to allow those in it to see and interact with targets trapped within 4D spacetime.In a universe with 11 dimensions as M theory requires, that s plausible to me, as is the existence of j space, the hyperdimension that allows interstellar travel without breaking the cosmic speed limit c Scientists are eyerolling, wincing, and generally scoffing I m sure Plausible is all I myownself require of fiction, not strict scientific rigor I want writers of SF to allow me room to suspend my disbelief, not require me to fling my admittedly meager scientific knowledge out the proverbial airlock.Back to Zedhis abilities helped win the war sort of for humanity because he disobeyed direct orders and saved a group of civilians even though it ran the very real risk of revealing his and his team s megasuperdouble secret modifications His act was publicly revealed without his knowledge and this fictional universe s superpower, called the Guardians because no one knows what they call themselves, step in with their superpowers and call a halt to the stins effort to eradicate humanity Then Zed and his fellow modificatees areabandoned Cut loose Left to twist because supporting them would mean acknowledging them and that would have horrendous political consequences.Support them What, pray tell, is the problem with that Don t we always support our veterans Hmm Don t we always take care of the men and women who are damaged and the families who are destroyed by the will of the politicians in pursuit of the Greater Good enraged sarcasmZed and his team are losing themselves Losing their minds, literally, as in the depredations of Alzheimer s and other forms of dementia and diseasekuru for one nightmare inducing example Flick is trapped in hell with the man he loves vanishing before his eyes Zed will be there, fully himself one moment and the next he s simply gone Unresponsive at best, inappropriately responsive at worst, defaulting to his military training in managing phase shifts to respond to threats Who happen to be his friends aboard the Chaos and his true love When Zed comes back from one such moment while throttling the life from Flick, everyone knows the end of Zed s life is coming closer by the moment It s impossible he d want to kill Flick.The desperate hail mary play of taking Zed to Qek the ashushk pilot s home world to seek treatment for the incurable and rapidly progressing condition that induced stin state abilities have gifted Zed with is, ultimately, unsuccessful and Zed dies during the last ditch treatment The Guardians swoop in, take Zed s body, and fix him during his time being fixed by them, Zed learns he has a higher purpose in the Guardians plans for the galaxy and they want him to remain among them The pull of his all pervasive love for Flick leads him to decline the opportunity to fully be whatever they plan for him to be, and with great sadness the Guardians return Zed to his true love, his dear friends, and his family.Now comes that personal stuff Flick s grief on losing Zed again remembering that they were separated by war for a decade is so accurately and harrowingly rendered that I was left a sobbing wreck I ve experienced a lotgrief than most people have because I was a young gay man during the AIDS epidemic Loss was common Grief was pervasive And then I went and fell in love with a man who had full blown AIDS Three years of good days, bad days, worse days, hospitalizations, spending nights in bedside chairs, doing small practical things like sponge baths and, later, diaper changes, holding Bland s hand when he was only bodily present and crying as quietly as I could hoping against hope he d come back and then hating myself for wishing it on him as he came back in horrible pain Two friends of ours, Joe and Domingo, would come and get me every so often and take me to some restaurant near Columbia Presbyterian and feed me something I d usually break down and sob somewhere along the line, and I still can t quite believe that they kept doing it for me, for Bland, subjecting themselves to public embarrassment like that I was well beyond caring about suchlike nonsense at that point.Then came the day that, looking at Bland lying helpless and hooked to a ventilator, a morphine drip, IVs of useless drugs trying to combat the cytomegalovirus killing him exquisitely painfully and slowly, and the fog of my wretchedness lifted for the first time in what felt like forever I went home to compose myself and, for the first time in what felt like forever, didn t cry the entire subway ride from St Luke s Roosevelt to my home in Battery Park City.My stocky Bajan wrestler was dead and he was never coming back His body was there, and once in a while he d try to come back to me sitting there holding his hand by squeezing it and focusing for a brief second or two on me before the fog came back I was holding him inside this hell because I loved him and he loved me and I couldn t let go.So the next morning I went, as always, to the hospital Walking into the ward in a clear, in fact crystalline and brittle, bubble of purpose I found Bland s younger sister sitting with him, a deeply religious young woman of the finest kind She loved the sinner and, if she hated the sin, she kept it to herself, for which I was and am grateful I sat down next to my true love, took his other hand, and said, I love you too much to see you suffer this way It s time to let go Let go and go home, my love I repeated this for hours as he tried toI don t know what, speak or communicatein brief spurts between vacancies His sister held his other hand and, when I couldn t speak, said the same thing to him.We left together She drove me home, I thanked her for the ride, and she said, no one could ever hope for a better friend than you are to my brother Thank you That night Bland died He was 34 I was 31.It was two years before I could sleep in our bed It was six years before I could climb out of the bottle and coke vial to decide to live again A terrifying heart arrhythmia made the choice stark And, this past May, it was twenty five years since Bland Jentry Carr and I died I put together a face to wear while I did the whole existing thing, but I was gone and not for the first time in my life Whoever I am now is not the man I was or would have been if I d kept hold of my Bland I suppose it s one reason I attract young men as loversin a funny way this old crippled up man is really just 25 I m not sure how I got here, to be honest, and there are days when I m not sure I m all that happy to be here, but here is where I am Like Flick, I ll keep putting one foot in front of the other until I do what needs doing.But I won t get Flick s miracle Reading about it, however, satisfied something very, very deep inside me That something that says yes to the bass thrum of loving another being so completely that their happiness and your own are completely entwined.I still talk to Bland every morning as I shower and move through my routine I don t believe in a god, I don t believe in a heaven, but I do believe that the huge energy of a human life leaves some mark, some dent in the fabric of spacetime, and I address myself to that It is enough for me to express my love for all the men I ve lost over the horrible plague years to those dents in spacetime Reality is unforgiving, but fiction kisses it better.Read this series It kisses your hurts better after inflicting them, that is 4 StarsReview This review might contain mild spoilers for Book 1 I wouldn t consider them spoilers as they don t reveal anything about the plot, but they do reveal certain bits of info that aren t given right away in Book 1 This book was definitelyemotional than the first, and, in a kind of ironic, contradictory, masochistic way, that made me happy Whereas the first book was about the figurative distance between Zander and Felix and the two of them trying to figure out what their new r 4 StarsReview This review might contain mild spoilers for Book 1 I wouldn t consider them spoilers as they don t reveal anything about the plot, but they do reveal certain bits of info that aren t given right away in Book 1 This book was definitelyemotional than the first, and, in a kind of ironic, contradictory, masochistic way, that made me happy Whereas the first book was about the figurative distance between Zander and Felix and the two of them trying to figure out what their new relationship was, this one was all about the effects of the stin poison on Zander s brain and how it was killing him.So first there was poor Zander, Zoning without meaning to or even realizing it, finding gaps in his memories, having constant headaches, and generally just being really confused and exhausted and scared about what was happening to him The scenes from his POV were probably the most heart tugging ones Then there was Felix, despondent and unable to handle the fact that he was losing the man he loved but trying to be the strong one for Zander Then there was the rest of the crew, who may not have been as close to Zander but still cared about him and Felix and were affected by all of this too There was also Zander s family, who didn t even know what was going on but clearly loved Zander so much I mean, Zander hadn t even talked to his family in years, I don t think, because of the war Then he didn t contact them even after the war ended Then he completely avoided Brennan, his brother, when Brennan found out he was on one of their stations and flew all the way there just to see him When he finally called, well, I ll let you read the touching moment for yourself, but I will say that Brennan s response nearly brought tears to my eyes because it showed how much Zander had pushed his family away and avoided them but how much they didn t care about any of that and just wanted to help him and have him back.Also, to backtrack a little bit, when I was about 20% into the book, I kinda stopped and suddenly realized that the characters in this book, the crew of the Chaos, already felt so familiar and comfortable to me And, well, that s always a good sign because it means they felt real and I liked them.The only thing I didn t like was that there was one thing in the book that was very deus ex machina Oh, and I still had trouble remembering whose POV I was in sometimes But I enjoyed the book enough to let those things slide.And that s about it for my review This book was a quick read but a good one The plot was focused on relationships and helping Zander rather than a ton of action, but it was never slow or boring, the characters were lovable, and overall I enjoyed the book Recommended For Fans of Book 1 in Jenn Burke Kelly Jensen s Chaos Station Series Anyone who likes M M romance, angsty struggle filled relationships, books set in space, realistically flawed characters, and imperfect but sweet relationships among lovers, friends, and family Original Review Metaphors and Moonlight Initial Thoughts I am really liking this series so far Lovable characters and lots of emotional situations Full review soon The continuation of Felix and Zander s story as they travel with the crew of the Chaos.Zander s health is the prime focus of this book How his previous military service and physiological alterations to ensure humans survival in the war against the Stin has let him with a slow death sentence This is emotional and not gonna lie, I cried The reader gets put through the ringer with Felix and Zander My heart is yours, always has been, always will be The secondary issue of the the crew s confli The continuation of Felix and Zander s story as they travel with the crew of the Chaos.Zander s health is the prime focus of this book How his previous military service and physiological alterations to ensure humans survival in the war against the Stin has let him with a slow death sentence This is emotional and not gonna lie, I cried The reader gets put through the ringer with Felix and Zander My heart is yours, always has been, always will be The secondary issue of the the crew s conflict with the Agrius cartel comes to a head and the fallout is catastrophic Cat and mouse across the galaxy is going to end up with them face to face How that plays out is a bit of a surprise The development of the secondary characters as we watch Felix and Zander s love story is good We get a greater understanding of the various species and the Chaos crew members It will interesting to see where they go from here I m up for the third in the series

  • Kindle Edition
  • 187 pages
  • Lonely Shore
  • Jenn Burke
  • English
  • 07 February 2019

About the Author: Jenn Burke

Jenn Burke has loved out of this world romance since she first read about heroes and heroines kicking butt and falling in love as a preteen Now that she s an author, she couldn t be happier to bring adventure, romance, and sexy times to her readers.Jenn is the author of The Gryphon King s Consort from Dreamspinner Press and the co author of the critically acclaimed Chaos Station science fiction romance series with Kelly Jensen from Carina Press She s also the author of Her Sexy Sentinel, a paranormal romance from Entangled Publishing.She s been called a pocket sized and puntastic Canadian on social media, and she ll happily own that label Jenn lives just outside of Ottawa, Ontario, with her husband and two kids, plus two dogs named after video game characters because her geekiness knows no bounds.


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